Being Alone

 Most of you who know me are well aware that I spend a lot of time by myself. I'm so used to dealing with all my problems on my own. It is exhausting, but sometimes I feel like it is the only way.

I was told earlier this year by a family member that I love dearly, to basically stop whining about doing things alone and just "put my back into it." This happened at one of my lowest points and just drove it home that it's just best if I keep to myself.

I'm just like everyone else. I need to have someone to talk to. I want to have someone in my life that I can do things with. I'm tired of being alone. I don't even talk to my kids about the things that weigh on my mind. They won't listen and if they do, I doubt they would care much.

Since I lost the store, I've been living with my son and his family. My work has slowed down considerably due to the nastiness of AI. On a good note, it has given me time to work on my own projects and build my business. It's slow going, but at least it's going.

I feel so alone sometimes. Depression and anxiety are always close by and sometimes I feel like they are waiting to consume me. I keep looking for my joy. I know it's there even though it tries to hide sometimes.

Times are hard for everyone. This year has been rough. If you need someone to talk to, call me. I would really like that. Maybe it would break my walls a little bit and I can vent a little bit too. Who knows? We may be able to share a little advice.

Don't be like me. Find someone to talk to, someone to share your life with. Don't keep everyone at arm's length. Open up a little and try to let your light shine.