Happy New Year!

Happy New Year!

The new year is here. It came in quietly. Soft and unassuming. 2023 was one of the worst years of my life. Over 12 close friends and family members have passed away over the last two years. Devastating losses, some that I have still not fully come to terms with. 

I've lost a business and my career has been impacted by the influence of AI. People have come after my family with a vengeance for my mom's assets (there were none...). They have threatened and harassed me to no end.

I refuse to let people get to me. I refuse to let them take up space in my head. For the last twelve months, I have doubted and questioned myself to the point where I questioned my sanity. No more! They will not win!

I am a survivor. I know many people who have had horrible experiences this year. I hope I can support them in some way so that they don't have to feel the self-doubt I experienced. We can lift each other up and provide the support we all need. 

We will get through this! The storms may be rough, but we can weather them. We can make it through anything if we simply band together and face things head on.

I guess my thoughts for this year are.....I will live. I will laugh and I will love. I will enjoy my life for as long as I possibly can. I want to explore and I want to share my world with others. I don't quite know where I'm going, but I know I will make the journey a memorable one!












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